Love You Can’t Say

He took my hand. “If I hadn’t met you, I might never have felt happy.”

Toby said that the sky in HL Area was very quiet. Even the clouds moved slowly. All love and affection were slow here, but true enough.

“Why did you switch me with Olivia in the first place?” It was a question I’d wanted to ask since the day I learned I was Luna’s daughter, but I didn’t. Four years ago, I was afraid his answer would drown me in the swamp, so I chose not to ask.

But now, I thought I could handle that. Whatever the answer, I clearly knew that he had me in mind, then it was enough.

He held me so tight that it hurt a little. “If you had gone back to the Lewis family, would you have divorced me without a second thought?”

I was stunned. I was ready to divorce him even without the Lewis family.

After a moment, I said, “Even if I don’t go back to the Lewis family, I still want a divorce. There is not much to do with the Lewis family.”

“It wasn’t easy divorcing me without the Lewis family behind you,” he quipped.

That was true, and I was pregnant at the time.

He sighed and smiled bitterly, “It was my stubbornness that brought me to this point.”

“But why is Leo involved in this?” I knew Leo was good to me, but why wouldn’t he want me back to the Lewis family?

After a pause, he said, “The Lewis family’s water is too deep. If the ship capsizes, the whole army would be lost. The Lewis family has offended so many people over the years, how do you expect to live without their protection?”

Then Leo used Hank to introduce me to Link so that even if I went back to the Lewis family, if something happened to the Lewis family, I still had the Kennedy family and Dennis to protect me?

Along the way, they seemed to think every way to protect me. But it all happened in the wrong way, the death of the baby and Diana, they all seemed inevitable.

I sighed and looked out the window at the blue sky, feeling hollow. How long had it been? I almost forgot who I used to be.

Four years could heal the wound, but could it really heal the broken mirror?

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“Come back to City P with me. I’ve been planning our wedding for four years, just waiting for you to go back!”

He spoke in a low, lingering voice.

I didn’t say anything. I just looked down at my watch and realized it was late, so I pulled myself out of his arms, and said, “Clariana’s leaving school. I’m picking her up.”

His dark eyes sank slightly, his lips closed, and he nodded. “I’ll go with you!”

I shook my head, raised my hand to his computer. “Your meeting isn’t over yet.”

The meeting was terminated in the middle, and the senior management of the George Group probably freaked out.

He smiled, but didn’t mind. “Let Toby take you!” he said.

I wanted to say no, but I shut up. After all, I could not persuade him, so I accepted.

In the car.

Toby seemed to have something to tell me all the time. I pressed my lips together and looked out the window, knowing that all he was trying to say was probably reassurance.

I sighed. “The Development of the George Group is at its peak now. Do you and your wife have children now?”

I remembered him saying he was married.

He paused and said, “Well, she’s two years old.”

“That’s nice!” I chuckled. Everyone started on their way.

He looked at me, grabbed the steering wheel, hesitated for a moment, and then said, City P has changed a lot in the past four years. Have you ever thought of going back?”

Going back?

Sooner or later, it seemed.

When I didn’t speak, he took it for granted that I didn’t want to go back and he sighed a little. “Madam, when Clariana fell, who hurt more, you or her?”

I stared at him for a moment. Seeing him driving carefully, I said, “I didn’t give birth to her, but in four years, she and I have become one. When she hurt, I hurt, too.”

He stopped at a stoplight and looked at me. “So, for four years, can you imagine how someone who loves you went through that? Mr. George is afraid that you will feel hurt when you see him, so, he kept his thoughts in check. He could only drink and socialize every day, desperately trying to put all his energy into his work.”

“The first winter you left, he got drunk and lay down in the snow in City P all night. The fever persisted on the second day. He said that was his happiest moment, because he saw you in his dream and you smiled at him.”

There was water in his eyes, and his voice sank a little. “By day he was cold and determined at the George Group. As soon as evening came, he began to humiliate himself. He goes through it day after day, sometimes he drinks until his stomach bleeds, but when he’s still wide awake, he takes me and says, Toby, should I go to her? I can watch her from a distance. But the next day when he woke up, he was silent again.”

“He hides his emotions perfectly. But he’s human, and no matter how well he hides, he breaks down. Ma’am, you don’t have to go back, you just have to live in the present and the future. If you love him, you can move on without torturing each other.”

The traffic lights came on and I was a little distracted. I never thought I’d hear all about Dennis from an outsider.

Consternation, distraction, I had them all.

No matter how rough the past was, it had indeed passed now.

After I picked up Clariana, I took her back to the yard.

Before he left, Toby looked at me and pursed his lips. “Mr. George is going back to City P this evening.”

With that, he went away.

I texted Dennis, not a lot of words, just a few instructions, “Be safe on the way!”

Within seconds of sending the message, he called, his voice soft and warm. “Have you had dinner yet?”

On the other end of the phone, it looked like he was ready to get on a plane. I nodded, looking up at the dark sky. “Yes.”

“Take care of yourself and eat regularly until I get back.” His voice was low, but loud enough to be heard.

Then I heard an announcement urging him to board the plane, and I said, “I gotta go. I’ll talk to you later.”

“Okay!”

After hanging up the phone, I was a little distracted. Toby’s simple words had created quite a ripple in my heart.

Yeah, the one who loved the most was the one that hurt the most.

I thought I loved him at first, but then I realized I didn’t. The moment I knew I was pregnant, I started planning to leave. When I lost my child, I knew it would hurt, but I gave him all my resentment. Even when I found out he switched the DNA, I left without listening to him.

It seemed like I was being selfish, which as why I was here.

I quit the hotel job a week after Dennis left.

Nathan took my resignation letter and looked at me, his face calm. “Does Mr. George know about this?”