Want to Play A Game

As I jumped myself awake, I then realized I must have fallen asleep. I sit up in bed and look around, and I don’t see Matt. I wonder where he has gone. I want to get up, but I’m afraid that my legs won’t allow me to stand. I moved myself to sit up, as I began to move my legs. I Want to stand and not fall on my face again. I slowly put weight on my legs as I go to stand. Hoping I can keep my balance this time, to my surprise I’m able to balance myself.

As I stand I see a phone, I walk slowly, taking small steps over to the phone, wanting to call my mother to let her know everything is ok. Knowing that she has to be worry sick about me. Even though I am uncertain how long I have been missing. As I pick up the phone I realize I’m an idiot, I don’t remember her number, fuck I can’t call her shit. As I go to hang up the phone, I see Matt storming over to me like a fucking mad man. “Jessica what the fuck are you doing, who did you call.”

I jump back as he surprised me, I then begin to wonder why the hell it is such a big deal if I call someone. As I look at Matt, he seems to be a little scared. The way he is acting makes me nervous as I stumble over my words “I just wanted to call my mother.”

Before I get to finish my sentence, he frantically says, “what you called your mother what the fuck Jessica why the fuck would you call her, I’m trying to protect you.”

What does he mean, he is trying to protect me? My mother has the right to know that I’m okay. I know that she is freaking out, worrying about me. Why would Matt not want me to get a hold of my mother?

“Matt stop” He doesn’t allow me to finish speaking. As he paces around the room, I’m not sure what to do. I then simply just walk in front of him and place my arms around him and hug him. I then can feel his body instantly relax by my touch.

“Matt I didn’t call my mother, I couldn’t remember her phone number. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“Jessica, she was involved in everything she had you taken by Adam. I know it’s hard to believe, but Adam was Kendra’s brother, your mother said you were involved with Kendra’s death. That you helped Jake kill her and Adam paid your mom a million dollars to help him capture you.”

“Wait what no she wouldn’t do that she is my mother, she loves me.”

“When I heard you didn’t get the job, I wanted to help you, so I called and said for them to hire you or all their dirty secrets would come out. Next thing I know I was threatened. I was told to leave you alone, or I would be exposed, so I did what I’m good at and I ran, I’m sorry.”

“What Matt, why would you do that, and you just left me you didn’t call to see if I was ok, you just left me.”?

“No, I tried calling you, but your number was changed. I couldn’t get a hold of you so I called your mother, she told me you found a new lover. That you were starting a new life with him. So, I thought you were happy, but something just didn’t seem right, so I came back.”

“You still left me Matt, why is it so easy for you just to leave me.”

“Jessica you scare the shit out of me, I have never felt this way about another person before in my life. I thought you would be better off without me, I’m sorry.”

“Matt, how do I know you’re not going to leave me again, how can I trust that you will be there for me.”

“Jessica I fucking saved your life I killed for you, so I can protect you, I promise I will never leave you ever again I’m sorry.”

I’m so confused from all that has happened, damn it, I want to believe that he will stay with me no matter what, but he has left me so many times. I want to believe him because I love him. Know matter how much I want to tell myself, I don’t, I do. Fuck it, what’s one more chance for someone that you can spend eternity with.

“Matt, what do we do from here? What is going to happen.”

“Where do you want to go, Jessica, pick a place and that’s where we will go.”

“I don’t care where I go, as long as I go with you.”

I know that this is crazy. I just don’t know if I want to live without him. When he’s not around, my world is nothing? Compared to when he is around my world, it’s wild. Every desire is meant just by his touch. I don’t want to be without him ever ever again. So, I will do whatever the cost is to be with him.

As he runs his hand through his thick brown hair I can tell he is thinking then he says”Alright then why don’t we get our stuff packed up here and get into the Jeep and just drive wherever we end up is where we’ll stay.”Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

As we gather our things and head out to his jeep we put our suitcases in the jeep. I then find it surprising that he has gotten me some things that I am going to need loving how thoughtful he is. We both get into the Jeep. He looks at me and smiles “you ready to go.”

“Yes, let’s start this adventure finally.”

As we are driving, I can’t help but to think about the first time I saw him. The instant attraction that sucked me in like no other. How my body craved him before I even spoke to him. Then when we first spoke, I could see how hungry his eyes were for me. Knowing At that moment my life would change forever.

He then snaps me out of my thoughts as he touches my shoulder. I’m so surprised at how his touch still gives me butterflies. I’m just enjoying this moment where I am just happy without a care in the world. He then smiles at me and says with a flirty tone, so Jessica, do you want to play a game?

I smile back at him, “of course you first.”