Uncontrollable Tempration

Adam Wilson

“Flowers, chocolates, teddy bears… there’s nothing that I haven’t given her! Yet she still doesn’t approve of me.”

“Why do you need her approval?” The shrink asked. I wonder how he is a shrink if he does nothing else but asks stupid questions.

“Because she is the woman I love!!! Wouldn’t you want the approval of someone you love?!” I snapped angrily at him.

The only reason why I was here in the first place was because of Mason. He ensured that I seek therapy because of my smoking and relationship problems with Sophia but I’m not sure this is working.

“Calm down Adam, I can see you’re frustrated because of Sophia’s rejection and your lack of nicotine for the past few hours.”

“Then don’t ask foolish questions.”

“I asked for a reason. Just take a deep breath and try to answer the question, why do you seek the approval of Sophia?”

Ugh! I would have beat up this guy right on the spot. But I’m trying to change… for Sophia.

“Because it hurts that she doesn’t like me and wants nothing to do with me. It hurts to see her with another man. What I want is for her to like ME and be with ME. I want her love, not her hatred.”

He was jotting down god knows what as I was talking. I hope this session is useful because this is the first and the last.

“Do you know why she rejects you?”

“Of course. Sophia was causing me so much trouble and pain that I decided to get away from her. That lasted for a short while before I came flying back to her just like an elastic band.”

“Hmmm, the elastic band theory. Go on.”

“She was heartbroken because just before I left, she had wanted me. But I rejected her. I got back in time just to catch her resigning from the company. I had to compromise a reason to make her stay and that’s what’s happening. However, each passing day she avoids me at all cost. Even after all the gifts, she never reduced her hostility towards me. And worst of all, she has a man in her life. And this man and I are good friends. I feel totally betrayed.”

“It sounds like she doesn’t love you anymore.”

“No. That’s what she tries to believe.” I laughed. “But we both know that she’s wrong. Somewhere in that little heart of hers, she still feels strongly for me. From time, she has always tried to hide her emotions. That’s because she doesn’t approve of me. If she does, I’m sure she would have given herself totally to me because she loves me deeply.” I said with confidence. “I’m madly and deeply in love with her. And I’m never giving up on her like before.”

“Maybe it’s not about flowers or chocolates. Maybe she wants something more.”

“Oh no. I don’t think so. If I touch her she won’t be happy. Although she may respond… I don’t want to take advantage of her.”

“No Adam. That’s not what I meant. You need to show her that you’re a man and you’re willing to go the extra mile for her. After all that you’ve told me, I’m sure she’s terrified that you only just want to sleep with her. Show her that you care for her too.”

“But I do want to sleep with her though.” I whined.

“Let her know that you have other intentions. On that note, this session has come to an end.”

Thank god. I need a smoke break.

“Congratulations. We would meet same time next week and then you would tell me about any developments with Sophia.”

I doubt I’ll be here.

“For the meantime, I’d like to hand you this trifold brochure. Read it, it will help to quit smoking and stay cigarette free for good.”This text is property of Nô/velD/rama.Org.

I doubt that too.

“Thank you for your time.”

“Thanks for listening.”

We shook hands and then I left without a second glance.

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Sophia Parker

“Mark me Sophia. Someday you will belong to me… And when you become mine, I will make love to you.”

“I will make sweet and passionate love to you. I will set your whole body on fire in a way that you’ve never experienced before, make you feel things you’ve never felt before, make you scream in a voice you’ve never heard before. Someday, you will be in my arms and I will pleasure every inch of you. And you’re going to enjoy every single second of our lovemaking… I swear to you.”

The words rang clearly in my ear like it was yesterday. It was like I had memorized them.

They affected me in so many ways… more than I was comfortable with. I couldn’t help but wonder if someday, they would actually become true. If he would keep his word like he said and do all the things he said he would do to me. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want him to, even if I know it isn’t the right thing to do.

It’s a miracle how I’ve been able to avoid him when all he seems to talk about and try to do is have sex with me. All his stupid and expensive gifts are just ways to try and make me consent but I won’t. Not like that.

He doesn’t even have a chance with me anymore because I’m with Sean now… but things between us don’t seem to be moving at all.

Sean is very hesitant in our relationship, like he’s not very interested in it. He always ends our kisses abruptly and tries not to get personal. It’s been a while, but I have been in a relationship before and things were very different. I would say he’s more caring than loving. He doesn’t seem like a boyfriend… just a really good friend.