Not Just A Luna; I Am Alpha!

Chassy

I went back to the Silver Moon Pack after I left Xander’s office. I didn’t bother cleaning up myself. No matter how stinky I was, I just couldn’t stay there for a little more time, knowing the woman he was with before was there with their son. A possible heir that I can never give to him. I drove my way home with my motorcycle, and no matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t stop my tears from falling. I felt hurt and betrayed even if I knew that it happened even before he knew that I was his mate.

After I parked my bike, I went straight to my bedroom but met Sims and Daddy Jay on my way. “C,”

“Dear,”

“I want to rest first,” I said, feeling thankful that I managed to suppress my feelings before I arrived. “Did something happen?” I asked, just in case there was something urgent that I needed my immediate attention.

“Nothing,” Sims replied, “But you don’t look OK. Did something happen?” he asked,

“No, I was just tired.” I answered, “I’ll be in my room if there’s anything you need from me.” I added and left them. I know that they think that I acted weird. Never did I go to my room first after I came back from somewhere and discuss things with them.

Sooner or later, they will be able to find out about the boy. But for now, I want to be alone. I want some time to think about our situation. ‘OK, we’ll keep you informed if there’s anything.’ Sims said through our link, ‘You know you can talk to me with anything.’ he added. I smiled, knowing he was always on my side. He and Allie. And I should be thankful and grateful for that, right?

‘I know, but I am really OK, so tell Daddy Jay not to worry about me. I just really need to rest and think.’ I replied,

‘Copy that, C.’ then I blocked our links. I didn’t want to be disturbed while I was thinking about what I would do when I returned to the Red Moon Pack. Judging by the look on Xander’s face, I can tell that he will let the boy stay in the pack, and I can’t blame him. I can’t take that right away from the boy, either.

With a heavy heart, I walked to the bathroom as soon as I entered my bedroom. I want to clean up and freshen up, hoping it will help me clear my mind as well. With everything that happens, having someone who can give my mate an heir was a threat I didn’t think that I could handle. As an alpha, I know the importance of securing the pack’s future. And Xander won’t be able to do that whether I give him a son or not. It’s because of the curse that had been cast upon our clan.

After hearing from my father about what we really are, I felt somewhat uneasy. I thought that I had an important role to play for the entire werewolf kind, even with the other species. But after learning that it was possible that I wouldn’t be able to give my mate his heir, I felt sad. I would exchange my abilities just so I will be capable of that. But as the days went on, I realized that it was only wishful thinking. But what am I really going to do about us now that his son came to him?

With an aching body and heart, I slept and retired for the day. I hope that this will ease the pain I am feeling at this time, even momentarily. Before I closed my eyes, I decided to inform Daddy Jay and the others about it. Yes, I know. I should talk to my father first. But I didn’t want to worry him or my mother. They should be happy being together now, and I didn’t want them to have anything to worry about.

The following day, I went down to the dining hall, where I knew everyone was waiting for me. This is the time when we talk and discuss things with the other pack members, as well as have casual conversations with them and get closer to each other. With this process, I was able to tell them what I wanted to say personally, and so were they.

Everyone looked and sounded happy as they talked about something and teased each other when I entered the dining hall. They all stopped when they felt my presence and greeted me. “Good morning, Alpha!”

“Good morning!” I replied, “Continue your conversation,” I added, and they all started to chat with each other again. Sims pulled a chair for me to sit on, and I could feel Daddy Jay’s eyes on me.

“How are you, C?” Simon asked. I smiled and replied,

“Fine,”

“Are we going to have a meeting after this?” Daddy Jay asked, looking at me intently.

“Yes, Daddy Jay. I want to know what Sims had been doing all this time that he and Allie couldn’t play.” I answered, looking at Allie.

“What? I did my task diligently. The training is doing great, and you will be surprised to see them later.” he said,

“I believe you, so don’t be too defensive.” I replied, “Let’s eat. I have something to tell everyone later.” I added and started eating. I don’t know how I finish my food because I feel like I can’t swallow it. After almost an hour, we were on our way to my office.

“C, don’t tell us nothing is going on, or nothing is bothering you. We know you,” Sims said as soon as we took our seats.

“Dear, I know that you are very strong. But there are some battles that don’t require physical strength, and that’s where you are usually weak.” It was Daddy Jay. He must have really known me. Simon and Rick, as well as Simon and Allie, are looking at me worriedly.

“Am I that obvious?” I asked and had my head down.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“Tell us what happened. We may not be of help, but being able to express your feelings might lighten your burden.” It was Rick.

I smiled at everyone, and with a heavy heart, I started to tell them about the boy. “I don’t have any ill feelings towards Ethan; that’s the boy’s name.” I said, “But I couldn’t help but feel threatened.”

“It’s a natural feeling. You must have really thought about this on your way here yesterday, but I want to tell you that you are Xander’s mate. No matter what, that will never change whether you are able to give him an heir or not.” Daddy Jay replied. “Another thing, have you forgotten what I have told you?” he asked, and I was confused, “The moon goddess paired you for a reason. If you are doubting the bond between you and Xander, don’t doubt the moon goddess.” he added.

I smiled and felt a little relieved after. Going really helped me a lot emotionally and physically. Everyone in the Silver Moon Pack is my source of strength besides Xander and the Red Moon Pack. I feel happy that there are a lot of people who are concerned about me and love me unconditionally. Our meeting about the pack followed and ended with a piece of good news. And that is, there were no vampire sightings around pack borders. My pack was safe, and everything was under control. I owe it to the people who had given me their full support.

I will be staying here for another three days before I go back to the Red Moon Pack. By that time, I guess my heart will be ready to see Xander again, as well as the boy. I hope so.