Love You Can’t Say

No matter how stupid one was, they would know how to avoid harm and take any advantage they might get. Now that Antonia had known my background, she would subconsciously be concerned about what I did or said to her.

And now she was aware of what I was capable of doing, she would definitely think twice before she took any more action. Seeing Antonia had left, I stood in the yard, spaced out for a while.

I was so grateful that I had spent the past four years in peace. But now I thought about it, with them all coming over here, the quiet pleasant days might have to come to an end.

Uncle Link’s assistant came to pick him up after dinner. And Nathan took Joey back home, too.

With Joey going home, Clarie ran back to bed and fell asleep.

Perhaps it was because I was getting older, I didn’t seem to be able to fall asleep quickly. On a midsummer night, the sky was full of stars – It was naturally beautiful.

Maybe it had been hot and dry these few days, and the cicadas were always making noises. But fortunately, the nights were quiet, and with the company of the cicadas, somehow I felt less lonely.

In the middle of the night, there was a knock on the gate of the courtyard. I got up and opened the door – It was Dennis.

Under the dim street lamp, the man’s eyes were low and deep, and his slender body stood like a jade at the door.

Before I could speak, he had already embraced me in his arms. He didn’t speak, there was only the faint smell of alcohol surrounding him.

Helping him into the yard, I said, “Were you drinking?”

He didn’t respond to me but just hugged me quietly, looking like he was already asleep.

It was late at night and the yard was getting cooler, so I got up and helped him back to the bedroom.

Before helping him to the side of the bed, I was pressed against the door frame by him, and he held my face and sniffed it.

I raised my hand and tried to push him away, but I didn’t have enough strength to, “Dennis, let go!”

Dennis stopped, his eyes were deep, and his handsome face was filled with sadness that I had not seen in a long time, “It’s been four years! I thought I could slowly forget you, but the longer it has been, the more ingrained it has become. I could only depend on alcohol to numb yourself on those lonely nights.”

His words were unintelligible but painful.

“Just get some sleep.” Then I helped him to sit on the bed. Sometimes, the drunk person acted like a child.

Dennis didn’t want to lie on the bed. He just lay on my knees and put his arms around me. After a long time, I heard his faint breathing.

I sighed. My voice was low and calm, “Are you really drunk?”

He didn’t say anything, just kept hugging me.

I probably already knew the answer. If he was really drunk, I didn’t know he would be able to make it here to find me.

I picked him up, put him on the bed, and I left the bedroom.

I made him some soup and placed it by the bed. And I looked at the handsome gentleman who still had his eyes closed on the bed.

I said, “I have a kid at home. If you want to come by, just come during the day. Clarie Bear has light sleep and wakes up easy.”

Dennis slowly opened his eyes, and his two black eyes fell on me, noble and elegant, “Are you angry?”

I shook my head, feeling very light, “Not really. You get some rest and the soup should help with your hangover.”

After all, it was the person I had used to be in love with – Even if you had let go, you just couldn’t act like you were complete strangers to each other.

After leaving the bedroom, I got into another room and rested.

…

The morning sunshine shrouded the entire HL Area. It was too early, the sun was not strong, and the dense fog surrounded the small town.

If you got up even earlier and climbed to the top of the mountain, you might be able to see the fairyland-like scene.

I had to send Clarie Bear to school, so I got up early. I stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom, and looked at the woman with pale eyebrows in the mirror – Her eyebrows were pale and her skin was pale. When did the sad look I used to have on my face disappear?

Perhaps it was at the moment when I left for the HL Area. That was the moment when I let go of everything in my heart. This place was really a good place to recuperate.

In the yard, Dennis was already up. He was standing under the apricot tree in the yard, and he seemed to be looking at something.

I just took a look at him, I didn’t go forward to interrupt him.

Dennis looked back, and his eyes were calm, “Hey, you are awake.”

I nodded and asked casually, “What would you like to have for breakfast?”

“Anything would be nice.”

I didn’t have much to say. My temper seemed to have gotten much lighter.

Clarie Bear woke up too. She saw Dennis and seemed a bit surprised. The world of children was always simple and she didn’t think much before speaking.

Clarie looked at Dennis and said, “Sir, why are you at my home?”

Dennis smiled, “Because I am homeless.”

Sometimes, what you said might be interpreted differently by the other person. I lowered my eyes – I always felt that as time went by, everyone’s heart would become a wasteland, and there would be no life anymore.

During breakfast, Clarie was talkative and kept asking Dennis some strange questions.

Dennis answered each one of her questions with ultimate patience.

He looked at me and said with a light voice, “I’ve handled the stuff here at the hotel, and I will be going back to City P for a few days.”

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Dennis looked at me, and his eyes were deep, “Have some good rest.”

When Toby drove to pick him up, Dennis left without saying goodbye, but just telling me to take a good rest.

I watched Dennis leave, and I had peace of mind. He didn’t inform me when he came and left silently.

The arrival of Link Kennedy gave the small county a refreshed look, and Derek Gilbert was removed from his position.

The people in the hotel knew about what had happened with me and Antonia Gilbert.

In the bathroom during the day, I got a message from Alex saying that he had gone back to Newton Town and would come back in a few days.

I replied a few words, closed the phone, and got ready to go out.

There already arose the voices of discussion outside before I could get up.

“Did you hear that Antonia’s father got into trouble? He was suspended. Some people say that he’s locked up now because the Prosecutor’s Office found a lot of money from their home.”

“I heard about that too! His father has been corrupted taking bribes for years. Finally, someone fixed him, and Antonia could finally stop being ridiculously triumphant!”

“I heard that it had to do with Clara, hadn’t it? How did she pull that off?”

“Was she someone’s mistress?”

“She shouldn’t be. I heard that she is the goddaughter of Link Kennedy, so…”

Staying in the bathroom for too long was not pleasant at all, so I got up and opened the door, then the chatter of several people stopped abruptly.

They all looked at me, smiled, and said hello, “Ms. Clara. What a coincidence!”

I nodded, said nothing, washed my hands, and left.

In our life, when we were young, we would dwell on heartless gossip against us for a long time feeling hurt. But when we looked back years later, those heartfelt hurts hadn’t been so bad honestly, it was just that our endurance was weak before.

People with real confidence and capabilities would never fear gossip at all. Those meaningless words were just said by those insignificant others of yours, none of them you ever should care about.

What they said wouldn’t be able to hurt you physically, what you needed to do was ignore them and move on. Those who spoke ill of others behind others’ back might be spoken ill against too.

Back at the office, Uncle Link called and said that he would go to the city and take a look. Things in the HL Area were basically done.

The deputy magistrate would temporarily manage the county for a few days until the new magistrate transferred from the urban area had arrived.

And after a few simple and subtle words, he left.

I was in a trance. People had come and now gone. Everything returned to normal, it was as if they had never appeared.

It was the weekend.

The HL Area was small, but a lot of folks would love to spend their weekends enjoying nature. Nathan and I were off today, and he proposed that we should go climbing with the two kids.

There was a beautiful church on the mountain in the east of the HL Area, and it was not crowded. In addition, there was a lively carnival downtown, so there weren’t a lot of people nearby.