Love You Can’t Say

Dennis raised his eyebrows, put me down so I landed on the ground, and he said, “How about what you have done to me -What should I do with that?”

I was confused, a little unable to react – What had I done to him?

He pursed his lips and looked at me with his pair of smiling black eyes. Only then did I notice there was some white liquid on his clothes.

I just realized the white liquid was the consequence of prolactin. My face was burning for a while, and I said, “But I… I didn’t ask you to hug me!”

He smiled, “Well, I’ll pay attention next time.”

I…

“It’s okay. As long as the baby is fed, it will not last forever. This is the normal state of mothers. It seems that Clarie Bear should have enough to eat.” Dennis said, and took off his jacket, on which there were white liquid stains.

I ignored him and pushed him out of the bathroom, so I could clean myself up.

Getting out of the bathroom, I got changed. Dennis was preparing breakfast downstairs.

Seeing that I got dressed, he looked at me and said, “Grab some breakfast before going, babe!”

“Let’s head over there now.” I grabbed my purse. I wasn’t in the mood of having breakfast.

Dennis had probably figured out I was anxious. There was nothing he could do. He handed me two boiled eggs and said, “Eat these on the ride.”

Afterward, he grabbed the car keys and headed out with me. We got in the car and started the engine.

I was in the mood to talk along the way. Dennis said, “I hired two babysitters. Give them time to try out first. And If you think they aren’t good fits, then we can hire other ones after the new year. Okay, babe?”

“Okay!” I responded, then I continued to be silent again.

He seemed intent on discussing the subject with me, so he continued, “We’ll go to the hospital after we have brought Clarie Bear home.”

I frowned subconsciously, “What are we doing in the hospital?”

He raised his eyebrows and smiled, “Are you planning to endure the pain every time we have sex and leave it be?”

I…

“How are we going to cure this?” This was caused by a mental disorder, not a physical one.

He pursed his lips, “Every disease has its cure. The doctors will find the best way for us.”

After a pause, he continued, ‘Besides, you have been suffering from insomnia. There’s no good stalling without seeing the doctor.”

“I am feeling much better recently,” I said. He didn’t know that in the days when the child passed away, I could hardly fall asleep, but now I felt comparatively better.

He pursed his lips, his two black eyes were filled with a superficial smile, his brows overflowed with unexplained meaning, with a bit of dark evil charm, “If every night is like last night, are you going to drain me?”

I…

I looked up at him, my emotions were a little light, “If you don’t touch me, why will you be drained?”

He held the steering wheel and frowned, “When did you get so dirty?”

While speaking, he took my hand, put it on his lips, and kissed the back of it. He said, “You know that the more times you endure this, the more easily you would get hurt. And we barely allow the wound to heal before we do it again – the wound will get infected. We will have to go to the hospital eventually.”

I looked at him and said with anger, “As long as you don’t touch me, I won’t get hurt!”

His eyes sank, “So, are you expecting that I endure your frigidity and die from high libido?”

Dennis George, when did you get so vicious?

I was upset, “Sure, why not? After you pass away, I will have all your legacy. Now that I have Clarie Bear, the rest of my life will be worry-free.”

“You wish!” At the traffic light intersection, he stopped the car and bit me. It was extremely painful.

It almost felt like a punishment.

Seeing that I was still holding the two eggs he put in my hand on our way out, he raised his eyebrows, “Eat them now.”

I pursed my lips, “I don’t want to eat!”

The green light was back on. Dennis started the car again. He had a meaningful look on when he saw me playing with the boiled eggs, “Haven’t you had enough fun last night?”

I was confused. And then I looked down at my hand and the two eggs I was holding, my brain fried.

Looking at him, I roared, “Dennis, you are a douche bag! What the heck are you thinking?” He hadn’t thought carefully about what he was going to say.

He smiled, the corners of his mouth raised, “Hey, watch your language!”

I didn’t want to talk to him now.

Seeing that I ignored him, Dennis became serious, looked at me, and said, “Why don’t you want to go to the hospital?”

“They won’t fit my problem.” We went through that once and it didn’t work. The treatment for this kind of disease was nothing more than taking medicine. The psychiatrist had nothing to do except chat and enlighten me.This content provided by N(o)velDrama].[Org.

He looked down and said nothing. The car entered the YT Community and Dennis parked it downstairs at the building.

He got out of the car, glanced at me, pursed his lips, and said, “Should I hug and help you get down?”

I shook my head, got out of the car, and went straight into the building.

We had called Alex in advance before we came over, so he already had Clarie Bear’s belongings ready when we arrived. When he saw Dennis and me, he seemed a bit upset, “She might need a couple of days to get used to the surroundings when moving in with you guys. In the first two days, she might be acting up and have a hard time falling asleep early.”

I nodded and said, “Where is Clarie Bear now?”

“She’s in the bedroom now. Luis is feeding her formula milk.”

I went straight into Clarie’s bedroom after a quick hesitation. I saw Luis wearing a set of black suits, looking handsome and ready for work. And he just finished feeding Clarie.

When he said me, he spoke immediately, “She’s full now. So she won’t cry hungry later.”

I nodded, “Allow me.” I took the nursing bottle from Luis. And then I looked at him and said, “Can you go double-check and make sure we’ve packed everything of Clarie’s?”

Luis nodded. On his way out, I spoke after a brief hesitation, “Close the door behind you, please.”

He frowned, “What’s wrong?”

Dennis came in before I could give Luis an answer. And he looked at Luis and said, “She’s breastfeeding, are you going to watch?”

I…

Luis blushed and turned to go out. But when Alex heard Dennis say so, he was surprised, “Clara only has taken the medicines twice. It’s working already? But doesn’t it also need the help of massages and…”

Having said so, he did not continue speaking – He looked at Dennis instead, and he figured it all out immediately.

“Oh my goodness! Too much information, I am out!” Saying so, Alex closed the door and left.

I…

I couldn’t help but look up at Dennis. I seriously resented him at the moment, and my face was burning from shyness.

“You get out!”

He wasn’t willing to go, “I want to keep you company, babe.”

I glared at him, “Get out!”

Dennis ignored what I had said. He seated himself outside at the balcony and started to play some online games on his phone.

I…

Dennis – How shameless!

I didn’t bother to give him any more attention. I turned my back against him and held Clarie Bear. When I went out in the morning, I deliberately wore something convenient for breastfeeding.

It turned out that I was overthinking. Clarie proved my speculation wrong. The little guy seemed open to taking milk from me. I didn’t have to worry about it at all, and she picked it up herself.

After a while, Dennis suddenly stood behind me. He’s tall and slender figure cast a shadow on me.

I looked up and found him staring at me. I subconsciously turned around to avoid him. If I wasn’t holding Clarie Bear, I would have cursed him.

But I held it back – I suppressed his anger and said, “Dennis George, have some respect for my privacy, okay?”

He spoke with a calm voice, “But you are my wife. What’s wrong?”

I…

After I finished feeding Clarie, Dennis came to join Alex and Luis, holding her. Alex saw Dennis, pursed his lips, and hummed, “The way Mr. George holds Clarie Bear was like a semi-paralyzed.”