Love You Can’t Say

I nodded. I felt so worn out after speaking, given that my body had been in bad condition already.

Seeing that I was getting drowsy, Jackie said, “Take some rest in the hospital today, so you would be ready for the banquet tomorrow night.”

I relieved a long sigh, lying in bed a whole day long.

…

It was already in the afternoon that I arrived in City P from Newton Town. Leo picked me up at the airport. He wasn’t pleased to see the dark circles under my eyes. He said, “What’s happened to you in Newton Town, Clara?”

I got in the car and said with ease, “I haven’t slept well. The schedules are tight.”

“We are going to the gown fitting first. And after that, you can get some proper rest at my place. I will come back to get you in the evening.” Leo started the car and spoke.

I looked at him, with a gentle smile on my face.

Seeing that I only smiled at him but stay quiet the whole time, Leo frowned, “Why are you staring at me with that weird look on your face?”

I looked away and spoke slowly, “Did anyone tell you that you’ve become more caring, just like a big brother now?”

He snorted and said angrily, “Don’t say things that go against your heart.”

I looked outside the window, got a little absent-minded. I said easily, “Leo, you and I are the only ones from the HL area that are still around.”

He seemed surprised, frowned, and looked at me, “What is that supposed to mean?”

Leo kept staring at me when our car was at the traffic light.

My throat hurt, so did my eyes, “Diana passed.”

“What do you mean she passed?”

“Diana and grandma were both buried at the cemetery in Newton Town. I used to want to take them back to the HL area. But now it seems like we can’t make it back there.”

The green light was on.

But the old people were passing slowly on the zebra crossing.

The cars behind ours kept honking to urge us, but Leo didn’t start the car. He looked up at the traffic light in front of us, and then closed his eyes.

The whistle was nonstop. Abruptly, Leo got out of the car and closed the door irritably. That took me by surprise. After figuring out what he was going to do, I hurriedly ran down behind him.

Leo walked up to the cars that had been honking at us and knocked on the window of the driver’s seat. The driver rolled down the glass and said impatiently, “Driving a freaking Bentley doesn’t make you any less of a moron! You…”

However, Leo’s murderous stare stopped the driver from finishing his cursing at us.

Leo pursed his lips and raised his eyebrows. He looked at the driver’s face coldly and said, “Get down!”

The man was a little confused, had no clue about what was going on, and said with anger, “What the heck is wrong with you?”

“I told you to get out of the car! Now!” Leo opened the man’s car door with forceful violence and dragged the big guy out of his car.

Afterward, Leo beat the man violently, and the man was a bit out of shape. Leo’s handsome face was clouded by anger, and the driver kept begging for mercy.

After venting his emotions, Leo threw a business card at the driver and said with a bit of arrogance, “Next time you honk again in the city center, you might not be able to get away with it alive.”

Leo got back into the car and started the car again right after saying so.

I sighed, “Leo… What you did there was just impulsive madness! You could’ve just listened to him nagging and waited until all old fellas have passed the zebra crossing so we could leave. There’s no need to cause any trouble.”

He pursed his lips and didn’t speak. His emotions were not here.

Leo was upset in silence. He was bothered by something else.

“What happened to her?”

I froze for a brief moment and then looked at him sideways. He was driving very seriously and acted as if he had just asked a common question.

I said, “It was dystocia. Her child survived, but Diana didn’t make it. She lost a lot of blood and collapsed.”

He frowned, “Who is the baby’s father?”

I gave it some thought before speaking, “I will keep the father’s name a secret. I adopted the baby. Diana never wanted the baby’s father to find out.”

“This was why you ended up in such a worrying shape coming back from Newton Town?” Arriving at the Ace Style Studio, Leo said so after he parked the car.

I got off the car and started my reply with an “Mhm”, “Will there be packed of guests tonight at the banquet?”

“Celebrities and journalists from all over City P will be there!” Leo motioned for me to go in and threw the car keys in my purse.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

I wasn’t happy about his action, “Did I allow you to throw your car keys in my purse?”

He shrugged, “Karina said that this kind of intimacy only happens between family and lovers.”

I…

Karina, was she the elegant girl I had seen in Newton Town?

I didn’t think too much into what he said though. I changed the subject, “So, would you say that after the banquet tonight people in City P will also know about me?”

He nodded, “Well, the whole country will know!”

I smiled, “Oh, come on!”

Seeing me smiling inexplicably, Leo couldn’t help frowning, “What is it?”

I shrugged, “Leo, I’ve always thought of myself as a person who has an easy time letting go. I move on from many things as time goes by. But with Luna, it just doesn’t work this way. I still want to ruin her reputation, and ask her to kneel and beg for my mercy to spare herself and Olivia.”

He frowned immediately. His two black eyes were showing a bit of complexity, “What do you want to do?”

“Remember the things I gave you before? Now that Olivia lost her baby as well as took my stabbing. Besides, Luna’s company was investigated now and she has lost a lot. I originally thought I have moved on already. But I don’t think I have. I am still thinking about the filthy stuff that Luna has done in the past and exposing her to the Lewis family. So everyone will know, it is nothing but a disgusting evil heart covered under her gentle and elegant disguise.”

Hatred could taint and consume kindness and forgiveness.

When I was a child, in the TV dramas, the leading characters could still forgive and move on after experiencing the disaster of the genocide. Now I thought about it, it seemed ridiculous to heal the grievances with kindness. These were just words bystanders would use to talk others out of their revenge.

I had never seen any victim who would use kindness and forgiveness as their weapon to revenge.

For the outsiders, to forgive and forget was the easiest thing to do. It was a completely different story for the victims.

Outsiders saw everything from the absolute outside, they could easier tell the right from wrong, and eventually, they would out-spoke the facts that were going to hurt the victims’ feelings.

Leo stopped and looked at me with a complexion of calmness and grief, “Clara, I am supportive of whatever you do. But I hope you won’t regret your decision. Life is too short – It’s all up to you to decide how you’d like to live your life, either to spend days dwelling in hatred, or, the other way around; I’d love to see you spend the rest of your life to see the beautiful world and nature, and to be with the ones you love and cherish those who hold you dear.”

I was astonished as I had never thought he would ever say something as touchy. I took a look at the man in front of me and he didn’t seem like the Leo I had known – But he was!

But if you thought about it carefully, you would understand why he had said the above. Back then, he was struggling in a world of hatred, yet he couldn’t get out of it. He did have found a way out after he had done so many hurtful things to others.