Regretting Divorce

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Hunter’s Por (cont’d) 

She whimpered and pushed me back. Rubbing her arm I held in a scalding grasp, she sneered, 

“You can’t do anything, Hunter Macintyre. Tyler is not a weakling. You can’t take him down. He knows how to deal with a monster like you” 

Hearing her praise that scoundrel in front of me, a vortex of fury swirled inside me. 

“Don’t.” I fixed my dark eyes on her. “Don’t try it. Claire. I know there’s nothing between you and Tyler 

Just because you think it that way, it doesn’t mean it’s not true. Tyler promised to marry me. He promised to give me a marriage you couldn’t.” She articulated after averting her gaze. 

I didn’t want to irk her but my lips upturned in a knowing smirk. She looks away when she’s lying. 

“Reject him. He’s not worthy of you 

“Neither were you and I still married you. What’s wrong with trying it with him! He can’t do any more damage, can he? You’ve done everything to me. I don’t have anything to lose.” 

a challenging 

I bit into the flesh of the inside of my cheek. Blood spread on the tip of my tongue. I gulped it as I let her eyes burn with mine in a c 

1 heard Tia Murphy talk shit about you. She’s alive because she’s an elder, I know for a fact that your mother–in–law will never slander and blame you for trapping her son” 

Claire staggered and frantically removed her hair from her face 

“All thanks to you. But Tyler is different. He doesn’t- 

Tyler! Tyler! Tyler! Why do you keep chanting his name?” I lost my temper. 

Going near her again. I pointed a finger at her. Not a clever move on my part. But I couldn’t help it 

“If you don’t stop it then I will really do something to him. Don’t push me, Chine 

“Why can’t I push you, huh? Why? She pushed me back, provoking me. “Why are you getting riled up when I mention Tyler! Why can’t you see me with him? Why can’t you leave me the fuck alone? Why???” 

“That’s because II ground my teeth together and gulped the words with a lump in my throat 

“You what Hunter Macintyre? Claire pushed me again. 

Because I regret divorcing you. Because I regret being an idiot and making you suffer from agonies you didn’t deserve. Because I regret that you lost our baby because of me. Because I want you to be my wife again. Because… I love you. 

“You what, Hunter? Tell me. You can’t just command me like you are my owner and have no reason” Her tear–smothered voice plummeted on my heart like lightning. 

Because I regret leaving you for another woman. 

Yes, I understand it now. I understand I made a gravely mistake. I shouldn’t have left the wife who loved me like a piece of her soul for a woman who broke my heart. 

Even if it was for fulfilling her duties as a daughter, Zara left me. She wasn’t there when I craved a lover’s touch or kiss. She didn’t take care of me when I was depressed after her departure. She didn’t put cold cotton cloth on my forehead when I was burning in swealtry fever. She didn’t prepare dishes for me day after day persistently, even though I kept rejecting them. 

It wasn’t her who patiently waited in our marriage. 

Claire did 

She did everything for me and that was why I was willing to work on our marriage. It was her love and resilience that made me believe in our bond, and agree to announce it to the world that I was hers 

It was because of her why I took interest in our anniversary preparations. Alas, I fucked up. I Fucked up a great deal. 

But the mouth, when I saw Zara after two years, I couldn’t control myself. The time I spent with her- the time I assumed was heavenly in my life 

came flashing before my eyes. I didn’t know what I was doing and ran to her, 

However, the true treasure was the two years of married life I had with Claire. When she would greet me with smile. When she would serve food in a plate for me, and sometimes feed me with her hands. The true treasure was her and I didn’t see it until she left. 

Whoever said it, said it wisely–That you only acknowledge value of someone or something when they are no longer in your life 

Similarly, I realized Claire’s worth only after she left me. Otherwise I had taken her for granted. I never cared for her feelings much less about how my actions would hurt her. 

I always believed that she was depended on me. That she loved me too crazily to ever think about offending me or leaving me. 

But after she left, it was then it came to my awareness that I was the one depended on her. I was the one who needed her. 

I was drunk ons stupidity. I was blinded by energies unknown that I couldn’t see what Claire has done for me in our two years of marriage. 

It was only after I slapped her, only after she said she will free me that I started feeling weird. And after she signed the divorce papers and bled to miscarriage did I realize that 1 disrespected the woman who truly worshiped me. That I kicked the source of happiness and peace out of my life. 

I thought it was Zara’s memories which were helping me survive. But after Claire left me and our house, it struck me that it perseverance. 

Was Claire’s 

Her small meaningful gestures, her motivating notes I found in my lunchbox daily, her smiles, her touch, her shy hugs, her breathing, her scent, her voice… It was them who kept me going and I never realized it until they ceased to exist in my life. 

And now, I’m here again. In front of her. With hopes that I can get a second chance. 

Although as I said I don’t think I will get another chance from her, I will keep trying 

I will repent for all 1 made her suffer and try to make it upto her. 

I will go on my 

my knees in front of a thousand cameras if that’s what it takes to seek her forgiveness. 

I will plan my own murder if that’s what will make her look at me with love in her eyes again. 

I will bleed myself to death if that’s what will make her smile happily again. 

I will try. I will wait. I will battle for her as she did for me in two years of our marriage. 

She was giving a test earlier. Now it’s my tum. 

She was trying to save our marriage from collapsing. Now it’s my burn to pick all the pieces and put them together to rebuild it 

She was trying to prove her love for me. Now I’ll do the same. I’ll show her and the world that I love her. I have truly fallen in love with her. 

Maybe I was always in love. It took time to recognize it. 

I do not love Zara. Not any more. I will not be with her. I will not let anyone else have her place. 

I will not see the wedding ring I made her wear on someone else’s finger. 

I will not walk down the aisle again with anyone else except her. 

I won’t take any other woman on our wedding bed. That house used to chim with Claire’s laughter. It will only chim with her voice, her laughter again or no one else’s. 

I will only take Claire as My wife. My woman My love. Just her. No one else. 

I will win her again. 

Rubbing a hand on my face, I blinked my weary eyes. I didn’t sleep for the last two nights as I was nervous about this meeting. Its exhaustion was weighing down on me now. 

“You have always been an independent woman, Claire. No one can own you. It’s just that- 

“You know what, forget it. You have wasted enough of my time.” She rolled her eyes disinterestedly as she ambled towards the door. 

“Claire, I need to talk. Please listen to me I didn’t hate the fact that i was pleading to her, 

Slie was caught off guard, yet she didn’t stay. She held the knob and twisted it. 

“I don’t wait to. There’s nothing left to talk about. Just leave me alone. 

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That’s what I can’t do. I can’t leave you alone. That too in RavenMoore. In Tyler’s country. 

“You don’t know anything about Tyler. He is a…” I trailed off as I turned around to the sight of Claire staring in a state of stupor while Tyler was standing on the other side of the door, his right hand lifted in the air with knuckles facing outside as if he was about to knock on the door. 

A frown formed between his eyes before it turned into a dark scowl. 

“What the fuck is he doing here? Did he bully you, Claire? Tyler came inside the room, pointing at me. 

His appearance fueled my possessiveness. I crossed the room and pulled Claire behind my back Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“Take your ass out of here, Murphy! 

No fucker can talk to my wife with that rigidness in front of me 

Tbc…